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9/11 yet again
i know everyons posting something about 9/11 today, and some of us are sick of it while some of us are in tears. im one of thepeople who is in tears.

a year ago today, this tragedy occurred. i havent cried till yesterday. ive been in shock that long and it finally just hit. i bought/took a billion pins today. im mailing one to Tav.

im not a crying person. i rarely cry, and i hate to cry. yesterday we had to watch this 9/11 film with these 2 french brothers who went with the first firemen on the job and they got stuck in the towers with all the smoke and stuff. nothing was edited out...and i mean NOTHING.
there was language, there were people jumping out of the buildings, you could hear their bodies crack as they fell through the cieling and onto the floor. i watched a fireman die right there on the TV screen. his last moments were filmed for all of us to watch. i saw them bring out the first found body, that preacher whos body count was 0001. there were bodyparts everywhere and people screaming in pain and worry. it was too much to bear, i cried. i dont know why they had us watch that in photography.

also, today in photography i looked through a book of photos from that day and the clean up days following. there, in the book, was a picture of a severed and mangled human leg, sandal still on the intact foot. i closed the book and left class.

at the flagpole they played several patriotic songs, i didnt sing for fear of creating this horrible crying sound that would be heard by all. i took my camera and got some pics of the flag as it hung lifeless at half mast. i silently cried, but i was bawling on the inside. Liz was standing next to me but i didnt speak cuz if i talked i would have poured out my soul and snivveled to the point where words werent making sense anymore. i had to stay strong though. i try to make it a rule to not lose it at school. i dont want the faculty to know im weak...thats how they start to think less of you anyhow. if they see you cry they think youll back down easy. i cried in the privacy of my own car.

tav called, and we watched the presidents address together on NBC. he was on ellis island, just a few minutes from Tav's island *which really was weird to think about*
im really nervous that hes gonna start a war. if that happens, and theres a draft....CW, tav and i are moving in with you to our neighbor to the north, Canada.

it really burns me up when people, after what i have seen during this week, dont at least STAND for thepledge. you dont have to say it, just show some respect and stand with everyone. Tiff's ex friend Miki *doesnt stand during the pledge* and she acts like a bitch about it feeling shes justified cuz shes Jewish and *belongs to israel*. whatever, i dont fucking care, stand up youre in america now. if you were in israel then you can do whatever you want. then she goes *america sucks i belong to israel yadda yadda thats where im gonna raise my children* i dont give a care....once again, youre not there now, nor have you ever even BEEN to israel. i assure you, america is a safer place to live. no offense to jews, its just this one particular individual who thinks shes too good for our country. if she was christian or buddhist id feel the same way. its disrespect is what it is. *bristles*

so to you who think youve heard enough, dont bother replying to my journal, cuz you dont have to read this. im just stating that its MY time to mourn and this is a time of respect. i dont wanna hear your opinion on how you think youve heard too much. this is mine. write your own opinion in your own journal if you feel youve had enough.

there, im done.

God Bless America.

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albinowolf From: albinowolf Date: September 12th, 2002 12:02 am (UTC) (Link)

I just got bitched out by my bf who isn't even American and who was one of the one's who are like 'it happens ALL over the world what makes you so special' and I told him to shut the fuck up. I personally lost cousins [my whole family on my dam's side are involved in the NYFD, I even gotz a spiffy official shirt the actual firemen wear] in that tragedy and hate when others put it down.

Yes, it IS a big deal. Yes, it WAS a tragedy. And all of you USA haters can just fucking move to MEXICO if you hate it here so much.

God Bless America, Indeed.
thornwolf From: thornwolf Date: September 12th, 2002 07:18 am (UTC) (Link)
AlbinoWolf, thank you for your comment! im sorry for your loss and im sorry your boyfriend does not understand.
while this happens all over the world it doesnt happen to us. not since pearl harbor, i think they need to realize that we are a peaceloving nation who doesnt deserve outside attackers who think were corrupt to kill our innocent people.
my boyfriend Tav said on the actual 9/11 there were people dancing in the street, glad that america finally *got whats coming to them* how sick is that?????
i think youre right, all who hate the US so much should move to a 3rd world country. theyll be BEGGING to come back, and ill be there at the border asking them for their papers ;)
desertcoyote From: desertcoyote Date: September 12th, 2002 12:30 am (UTC) (Link)
I agree.
Man- it sounds like you've had 9/11 shoved into your face constantly all day...those pictures and sounds you describe- I'd be crying too. You have every reason to need to emote and react to it.
pardouncia From: pardouncia Date: September 12th, 2002 01:40 am (UTC) (Link)
I couldn't take it after watching the news and such and then seeing some of the stuff on TLC. It kind of hit me for the first time. I knew that people had died, but I didn't KNOW the people. TLC was showing all of these friends and families of those that died, and the one show that I saw was "Babies of 9-11" about all of the babies who's dads died before they were even born. I think something broke inside just about then. I turned the TV off after it was over, and I can't watch anymore.

I agree with what's been said here. If you don't like the ideals of this country, then you shouldn't be in this country. Get the hell out. If you don't understand the significance of what's happened, then what's wrong with you? It's probably one of the most significant events any of us will ever witness in our entire lives. Now I'm going to go and try to push away the thoughts of what I've seen today. It hurts too much to think about it.
rogue1717 From: rogue1717 Date: September 12th, 2002 06:56 am (UTC) (Link)
hey everyone needs time to mourn. Nothing wrong with that. And as long as Tav is the only son of his mother, you don't have to worry about him being drafted. He can't be. Part of the draft law itself. He'd be the only one able to pass on the family name.
thornwolf From: thornwolf Date: September 12th, 2002 07:13 am (UTC) (Link)
prob is...hes not the only son of his mother cuz his dumb mooching brother had to be born. *his brothers not too nice, to me or anyone*. but the thing is, tav would be one of the LAST LAST waves to go if there was a draft cuz he has so many health problems that cant be fixed, when theres many other young men who are in better fighting condition. tav has a hole in his heart, ulcers, prob with his hip *keeps popping outta joint*
etc. hes a great guy but..not good for hard core military style fighting. i think hed get so beat up in training hed have to get sent home. *feels a little joy in that knowing he wont be sent away*
pardouncia From: pardouncia Date: September 12th, 2002 06:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
Kind of ironic being thankful for such things, but I can understand why. Going to fight would not be my idea of fun either. *likes living, is kind of weird that way*
From: swanhawk Date: September 12th, 2005 09:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
Amen to that, Thornwolf. Amen to that.


Damn straight. God Bless America.
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